I had a really quiet christmas. Spent the day with b driving us around. We went to Ikea. =) I like ikea.

Haagen bbq was awesome!! We get to catch up with each other. Can't wait to meet them again! Hopefully once more before my school starts. Didnt take much picture with my camera cause we were too busy trying to start the bbq fire. It took us so long cause we were doing it wrong the whole 2 hours plus -.-

I really really miss cheerleading after meeting up with them!! We shall go to sentosa and do stunts in the sea. Hahaha. <3

Tell me you love me?

If everything's just that simple. To not cry and walk off. If love's ever that easy,

'i like you' get together.

'i dont like you anymore' break up.

But nothing's ever that simple eh.

I feel like every single part of my body is breaking.

My heart is protesting from all the pain I am inflicting.

My mind is going to explode from all the thoughts that I am having.

I'm choking back my words, my tears, my anger.

How I wish you would understand.

I've got so much to say. I just dont know how to put it into words.

I regret fighting to recover.

Painkillers won't numb your heart. Painkillers won't kill the pain you feel.

So give me a drug that will.

Cause my drug tried to kill me.

All I wanted was an escape. A solution. An answer to end this pain.

I just fucked myself up.

I've learnt.

I've learnt to turn a deaf ear to the things that I don't want to hear.

I've learnt to close my eyes to the things I don't wish to see.

I've learnt to block out the part of me that feels pain.

I've learnt to smile even when all i want to do is curl up into a ball and cry.

I've learnt to not think at all.

Cause when you think, and you let your imagination run wild, it fucks everything up.

So, B finally returned the car. After 1 1/2 week of having a driver drive me around, I almost forgot how much I hate public transport. All the pushing and shoving. Sitting beside strangers that smells weird. Laptop in one hand, heavy bag on the other arm then digging for the goddamned ezlink card. GOD! HOW I HATE PUBLIC TRANSPORT!


p/s Faster go buy car eh!

Nowadays I don't even know what the hell i am doing. I spend my time drifting around, going with the flow, waiting for people, waiting for something to happen. Hell, I don't even know what I want to do anymore.

Nights after nights of trying to sleep then waking up all cranky and missing school. I really have to stop this.

On a brighter note, it's friday again. I get to vent my frustrations on the punching bags. =) GO WAISUN!

You'll always keep me waiting and I'll always be stupid enough to sit there and wait.

ME. IS. CRAVING. FOR. JAP. FOOD!

I've decided that my life is getting boring so i tried something new. Went for the training yesterday. Tough and sibei tiring and Charlie and vik both agreed that I am too girly for that sport since i refused to cut my nails.

But HAH! I'm gonna prove them wrong.

Anyways, my body is aching like fuck now but i feel so fucking alive. It's been 3 years ever since my last cheer training that I've felt like that.

I'm on my way to becoming muscular again. Don't mess with me hor.

I asked you if i looked different in this picture. And you told me that I look happier then. I guess I was. I guess we both were. What happened? We used to take things as it comes. Now everything's just so complicated. I want us to work. I want us to be ok..

sucks that my laptop is down. can't do anything...

I HAD THE AWESOME-EST BIRTHDAY

i was awake the whole night. holding the phone to my ears. waiting for a text that never came.

We've all changed. For better or worse, we all still did.

Updates updates.

So I met Vshal and kel at some super ulu place to fish. I've never fished before so I was damned excited. I got to cast the line twice!! Though the first time i fail miserably..

We were food for mosquitoes that night. I wore fucking tights k! I dont know how my legs and butt got bitten. Anyway, We finally caught a fish! After 5 excruciating hours of being bitten by god-damned mosquitoes.

Anyway, I need to shop!!

I miss partying!

I feel so empty

Eminem - Love The Way You Lie ft. Rihanna

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn. Well, that's alright because I like the way it hurts. Just gonna stand there and hear me cry. Well, that's alright because I love the way you lie

Awesome Awesome Night! ♥

This awesome night beat all the other awesome nights hands down. We got there late, as usual. But once the Macallan start flowing.......... PARTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEE TIME!!!!!!!

Best thing bout that night/morning: It all ended well. And no one puked. =D

Let's do it again!

I was bored. But so cute right!! Zombie letter.




PARTY TONIGHT PLEASSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's another day wasted waiting for you to get up, Waiting for something to happen.

But you're just a boy. You dont understand. How it feels to love a girl. Someday you wish you were a better man. You dont listen to her. You dont care how it hurts. Until you lose the one you wanted cause you're taking her for granted and everything you had got destroyed.

Pretty lights, Happy thoughts.

Went to Fullerton Hotel to watch fireworks this year. Couldn't get a room at Marina Bay Sands. Fully booked! Can you imagine. Oh well. But staying at Fullerton was awesome too. It worked to our advantage because the hotel reflected the sky. So the building kinda lit up when the fireworks started. PRETTY!~

Fireworks this year was different. I get to watch it up close and with my family instead of my friends. I love love love fireworks. They are so special to me that it is almost personal.

If I were a boy

So i finally watched SALT last friday. Angelina Jolie is hot and I like the storyline.

Went out for another drink last night. Small one. Fucked up my throat. I swear I'm not drinking or partying anymore! The whole of this week at least.

Fucking awesome night.

Note to self: panadol and alcohol does not go together. Yup you get fucking high god damn fast. So damn fast that you start puking. Thank god i was sober enough to look for a damn bin before i started throwing up. Cold puke. That's a first.

BTW I didn't take the pills just because i want to get high hor. I took it cause I was running a fever and you just can't say no to partying right?

Too drunk for pictures.

Been partying and drinking for 2 fucking days in a row. Don't want to stop. Don't plan to stop.

Partying tonight bitch!!

• Step up 3
• Street Dance
• Ong bak 3
• Salt
• The crazies
• The last airbender
• HARRY POTTER and the Deathly Hallows
• Grown Ups
• Resident Evil 3
• Cats and Dogs
• The sorcerer's apprentice

I can't wait to watch Step Up 3 and Harry potter!!

310710 Morning

♥ Those brown eyes

It was the wildest night ever. We partied the whole night. Drank, Danced. I had a blast! That's the life i want.