I've learnt.

I've learnt to turn a deaf ear to the things that I don't want to hear.

I've learnt to close my eyes to the things I don't wish to see.

I've learnt to block out the part of me that feels pain.

I've learnt to smile even when all i want to do is curl up into a ball and cry.

I've learnt to not think at all.

Cause when you think, and you let your imagination run wild, it fucks everything up.

So, B finally returned the car. After 1 1/2 week of having a driver drive me around, I almost forgot how much I hate public transport. All the pushing and shoving. Sitting beside strangers that smells weird. Laptop in one hand, heavy bag on the other arm then digging for the goddamned ezlink card. GOD! HOW I HATE PUBLIC TRANSPORT!


p/s Faster go buy car eh!

Nowadays I don't even know what the hell i am doing. I spend my time drifting around, going with the flow, waiting for people, waiting for something to happen. Hell, I don't even know what I want to do anymore.

Nights after nights of trying to sleep then waking up all cranky and missing school. I really have to stop this.

On a brighter note, it's friday again. I get to vent my frustrations on the punching bags. =) GO WAISUN!

You'll always keep me waiting and I'll always be stupid enough to sit there and wait.

ME. IS. CRAVING. FOR. JAP. FOOD!

I've decided that my life is getting boring so i tried something new. Went for the training yesterday. Tough and sibei tiring and Charlie and vik both agreed that I am too girly for that sport since i refused to cut my nails.

But HAH! I'm gonna prove them wrong.

Anyways, my body is aching like fuck now but i feel so fucking alive. It's been 3 years ever since my last cheer training that I've felt like that.

I'm on my way to becoming muscular again. Don't mess with me hor.

I asked you if i looked different in this picture. And you told me that I look happier then. I guess I was. I guess we both were. What happened? We used to take things as it comes. Now everything's just so complicated. I want us to work. I want us to be ok..

sucks that my laptop is down. can't do anything...